I Am Calm by Lady PJ

I Am Calm

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

1/13/2015 2:55:09 PM

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Copyright 2015

He turns me on

Only to turn me off

The flickering light syndrome

Not fazed yet

I stand firm

Anger lingering at the door

Just a knock away

I’m staring at this man I hunger for

Watching him dismiss me like a student

That the teacher is justly displeased with

A show of his dismay flashing across his face

My mental computer processing every screen

Hurt by every shot taken

I am calm, I_ Am_ Calm_

Holding myself I keep peace within

Seek not vengeance or wrath

The devil screaming in my ear

Strike back you, you

Strike back!

He stands there smiling at me

Knowing how I feel inside

How I long for his touch alone

How I need him and his love only

Yet he dares to smile at me

The knife twisted by his hand

Deception displayed

Scorn relived from moments past

That haunt me now

Inside the storm brews

I fight against the tide

Just a bit until finally… I catch myself

I Am Calm

Love Sick

Love Sick by
Philessa Hooks Jenkins aka
Lady PJ
Copyright 2015
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1/04/2015  9:25 am

I'm deprived of affection
You ignore this aggression
That's built-up inside of me
Waiting like a storm
To be freed from it's pain
I have wants and desires
Needs so great they could start fires
I concede to your victory
Yes, you've gotten the best of me
Now I plead...
If begging is what you need
Baby, Baby, Baby, please!

Damn, this is depressing
Pulling me down
Taking away all my player cards
While my haters watch
As this rising star falls
And not downed by the police
O, No! Man down and love be the culprit
Yes, I confess!
I'm love sick and it feels like death

The Talk by Lady PJ

The Talk

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

All Rights Reserved

11/4/2014 10:52:54 AM

How do I start?

I ask myself…

The beginning would be too far

The middle not quite far enough

Maybe I should just state the facts…

I love you but you leave me breathless

And not in a good way

Grasping for air and waiting to be saved

Wondering if the choice I have

Is the right one I’ve made

Longing for depth of affection

Loosing myself in oceanic waves of confusion

Trying to escape this mountain I’ve climbed

Over and over again in my mind

Dead tired and running out of time

Yet I find myself breathlessly

Standing by your side

Picking you up when you fall down

Waiting for that nibble of affection

I got a bad catch and if you were a fish

I would release you; let you go on the pull through

Yet, somehow I keep you

It’s a price to pay

And the bills add up

Frankly my darling I think you cost too much

There’s one thing you must understand

There was a return policy and I’m cashing in

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The Trophy Wife

The Trophy Wife

10/2/2014 3:51:59 AM

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

aka Lady PJ

Copyright 2014

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I feel stuffed like one of those prized deer heads

 That men line their walls; with doting admiration

Senselessly seething with joy at such a wondrous accomplishment

I, the trophy, belittled by the thought or the intention

As if it gives me pleasure to lower myself to being a stuffed animal

I have not the slightest wish to be an ornament for any bodies’ wall

Why then would any women want to be labeled a trophy wife?

What value could that position give except low self-esteem over time?

A value comparable to a dead animals head hanging on some hunter’s wall

Ponder that...

You Cheated by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

YOU CHEATED!

10/7/2014 2:28:22 AM

Written by Philessa Hooks Jenkins

Aka Lady PJ

All Rights Reserved

Copyright 2014

Hatred and resentment

Yeah, I breathe that!

Especially the night you cheated

Now you act like it’s a relief

Because you’re junks been uploaded

To a new site

…I’m about to go off!

I don’t even think you know

This wound I carry in my soul

Because your selfish night

Hurt me so and every time

I look in your sons eyes

I see just one more time

You say I’m sorry

I forgive

You make me a promise

I listen with hopeful ears

You say I love you

I shed more tears

This hurt I carry

Is because you put it there

So stop the small talk

Let’s be real

If you want to be a man

In these streets

You can get the

H e double l out of here!

The window

The Window
by Philessa Hooks Jenkins
aka Lady PJ
9/19/2014
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Copyright 2014

There's an urge in me to cry
Be it for pride...
the killer of many teardrops I suppose
Now the crutch I lean on
Yet I mourn deep inside
Too afraid to hope that joy will come

This mask now I've adorned
And become til now we are one
I look in the mirror and it's all I see
Except the eyes... those eyes
they never lie

Confession Of The Heart

Confession Of The Heart

Written by Philessa Hooks aka

Lady PJ

Revised 8/22/2014

Copyright 2005

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I hope that, in me, you see a heart that beats for you; your true admirer.  You are my sun; the light that consumes the darkest days.  My love shall never end nor fade for I am committed to you this day and forever.  I surrender now to you my sun.

I try but fail in your presence to express the depth of my emotion for fear that you’ll turn away from me.  I then turn into a paraplegic standing in your mist motionless and overcome by a desire to express but in the end I’m left with moments forever lost. 

I pray now that you see the desire that beams from my eyes and feel my love with every touch we share together. …Then my love will you know without hesitation that I am yours completely and forever!

I give you now this smile, my simple gift, to express my rejoicing for this moment that we now share.  It may be of little significance to you but to me it means so much more, its life sustaining. 

I leave you now with the knowledge that my joy cannot be defined in a single poem or a song, it can only be expressed and felt with every emotion that lives inside of me.  I’ve now given that from my heart to you.